CONQUER
I’m grateful that I’m learning how to allow my body to heal…
Some days, I feel like I can conquer the world! And some days, it feels like the world is going to conquer me. Those days are really hard, because my mind wants to do one thing, but my body decides it’s going to do something else. I used to beat myself up with guilt and pressure that I wasn’t doing everything I needed to or even wanted to. And over time, I’ve learned that being hard on myself and trying to push through everything regardless of what my body is saying, only adds to the problems my body is already experiencing.
But in recent months, I’ve been learning to listen to what my body needs and give it a break when it needs it. On days like this, I’ve learned to give myself some slack. Sometimes that’s frustrating, because it gets in the way of some of the things I want to accomplish. But it also helps knowing that I am doing something important, and that is letting my body heal. Right now I’m on a quest of healing, and in order to allow my body to do that, I have a job of listening to it and taking care of it better than I ever have before.
I’ve tried to come up with some things that I want to accomplish that don’t take much energy or effort. Like doing things on the computer that are productive but don’t use much energy, such as journal writing or family history work. Or listing in my mind things I’m grateful for, pondering about things that are important to me, or making plans in my mind of things that I just haven’t had the time to think about. Then I’m still accomplishing things, and that makes me feel better.
But there are some days that everything seems so overwhelming and even thinking about those things is too much, and I just have to lie around on the couch, sleep, read a book or watch movies. And that’s okay, too. I’ve learned to look at those things as part of my healing, because sometimes my body and mind just need to take a break from it all. I know as I listen and take care of myself now, that I will be able to heal, and then I will have more energy to do those things that my mind desires.
So for now, I remind myself that when I give my body what it needs, I AM CONQUERING!!
Give yourself some slack and learn to conquer in new ways too! Remember, “conquering” doesn’t always mean making it to the top of the mountain, or checking off everything from your list. Change your perspective and give yourself credit for the various ways that you conquer! Be grateful for the things that you are able to do, even if they seem small or inadequate. And whether or not you’re at the top of the mountain, you can still throw your hands in the air in celebration, because YOU ARE CONQUERING, TOO!!
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